Social Media and Recovery Advocacy: With Power Comes Great Responsibilty

For many of us involved in addiction recovery advocacy work, somewhere along the way we learned that our stories have power, that our voices have power.  As we have taken our advocacy efforts into the realm of social media, we have witnessed the sheer magnitude of reach contained in a single voice.  With words, pictures and videos rapidly traveling across towns, cities, state lines and oceans separating continents, we see the extraordinary power contained in our voices.  However, as the familiar saying goes, “with power comes great responsibility,” and we must always remember that every time we use our voices, we have the power to either help or harm.

Throughout the course of my own personal growth as an advocate, and with the loving guidance of wise, patient and seasoned mentors, the following are two key lessons I have learned along the way when it comes to the responsible use of power in my voice:

Owning Our Power

It is important to not minimize the power contained in our voice.  While we may not see ourselves as the inspirational and knowledgeable leaders other people see us as, it is irresponsible of us to not recognize that we are in fact often seen in this light.  Minimizing the power we have rather than owning it creates a dangerous space for us to also minimize the potential harm we can cause if we fail to be thoughtful and intentional about the messages we share.  While many of us will find ourselves asking “when and how exactly did I become a person whose voice has influence?”, we none-the-less must own that we do have this power and in turn responsibly harness it.  Once we recognize and own that our voices do have extraordinary power, we can then come from a place that allows us to be more thoughtful about where we direct that power.  It is imperative for the good of our collective efforts that we try our best to always use that power to help rather than harm the goals of the recovery advocacy movement.

Refraining from Impulsive Responses

Advocates in any arena are most often driven by personal passion.  Whether it is through our lived experience as a person in long-term recovery or as a family member of somebody who has struggled with addiction and/or found long-term recovery, our lived experiences are what drive the deep passion we have for advocacy work.  While this passion is certainly a key ingredient for any effective advocate, there are also pitfalls to be aware of that can come along with it.  Perhaps the biggest elixir for these pitfalls is our own innate emotional responses.  At times our emotions will be triggered and subconsciously move us into blindly typing a quick Facebook status message or tweet without pausing to think of the bigger picture or the implications of what we are endorsing with our voice.  At times our emotions will move us to share what could be a harmful picture, article or video without pausing first to do our homework, consider whether this helps or harms overall advocacy objectives and if this is in fact the message we wish to convey.  Using the power of our voice responsibly means refraining from emotionally driven impulsive responses and being intentional and thoughtful in all we put out there.  Again, the key question to ask ourselves is “does this help or harm the goals of the recovery advocacy movement?”

As noted in my previous blog, the advance of social media as an advocacy tool has brought with it many strengths and new opportunities.  With understanding that our stories and voices have power, having new platforms to use that power is a wonderful and amazing thing.  If we can all remember that “with power comes great responsibility,” there is no telling how tremendous a catalyst social media can be for helping our advocacy efforts.

Originally posted on Faces & Voices of Recovery’s RecoveryBlog. Faces & Voices of Recovery is dedicated to organizing and mobilizing the over 23 million Americans in recovery from addiction to alcohol and other drugs, our families, friends and allies into recovery community organizations and networks, to promote the right and resources to recover through advocacy, education and demonstrating the power and proof of long-term recovery.

Social Media and Recovery Advocacy: The New Frontier

Perhaps more than any other sociological advance we’ve seen over the past decade, the widespread use of social media has had a tremendous impact on the New Addiction Recovery Advocacy Movement. The ability to connect across counties and continents has facilitated the transfer of information and fostered opportunities for networking in ways  twonever before imagined. The ability to virtually mobilize and organize the recovery communities online has magnificently spilled out into the physical world at recovery meetings, social events, advocacy days, conferences and massive rallies such as last year’s Unite to Face Addiction event in Washington, DC.

In addition to these two powerful benefits, the ability to put a face and voice on recovery has never before been more real as hundreds of thousands of people each day publicly disclose being a person in long-term recovery for the larger world to see on their Facebook, Instagram and Twitter accounts. This public disclosure of recovery status has moved our movement giant steps away from mostly preaching to the choir and out into a place of serving as beacons of hope and sources of inspiration for the greater world to see.

All told, the widespread use of social media has certainly advanced the New Addiction Recovery Advocacy Movement, yet as with all advances, the widespread use of social media has also brought new challenges for us to grapple with. This blog is the first of a series that will explore some of the challenges of social media and recovery advocacy that our community must discuss, struggle with and get to the other side of.

Language
With so many styles and varieties of recovery experiences that are embedded in individual and cultural contexts, coming to a place of one universal, non-stigmatizing and all-encompassing set of words and messaging is no easy task and remains one that our movement still struggles to unite around, spread and sustain. With social media providing a very public forum for self-disclosure and conversations around addiction and recovery, we see at least just as much use of less favorable language as we see individuals using the research-backed Faces and Voices of Recovery messaging. In order to continue moving forward with promoting non-stigmatizing language that will transform minds and hearts, our movement will have to acknowledge all of the factors at play in the variability of language, the real benefits of that variability, the potentially harmful limitations and challenges of that variability and ultimately new strategies for moving language forward.

Pictures
The notion that a picture is worth a thousand words is one that the advance of social media has brought square into the forefront. As we see unsavory and stigmatizing images used by the media for stories about addiction and recovery, how will the recovery advocacy community unite to demand better from the press? As we see an abundance of videos posted that demonize victims of an overdose, how will the recovery advocacy community unite to demand an end to public shaming that only leads to more discrimination, stigma and lack of awareness about the reality of recovery? As we see countless memes using stigmatizing language or poking fun at addiction and recovery, how will the recovery advocacy movement unite to counteract these images with memes that instead use strengths-based language that promotes the universal value and reality of recovery?

The challenges surrounding the language and pictures used on social media are just two of a number of areas we must address as we continue forward movement in the new frontier of social media and recovery advocacy.

Stay tuned for my next blog on this subject which will explore the personal and collective responsibility that comes with advocacy on social media…

Originally posted on Faces & Voices of Recovery’s RecoveryBlog. Faces & Voices of Recovery is dedicated to organizing and mobilizing the over 23 million Americans in recovery from addiction to alcohol and other drugs, our families, friends and allies into recovery community organizations and networks, to promote the right and resources to recover through advocacy, education and demonstrating the power and proof of long-term recovery.

 

Why I Let Go of My “Clean” and “Sober” Date

For well over a decade, I have celebrated my “clean” or “sober” date anniversary with more gratitude and joy than my actual date of birth.

I have attached so much meaning to this date, in fact, that on more than one occasion, I even considered getting this momentous milestone tattooed on me; a big ‘ole “July 19, 2005” forever ingrained on my body as a symbol of my new life without the use of alcohol or other drugs.  It seems that at some point early in my recovery journey, I learned to equate the amount of time I accumulated of continuous abstinence from alcohol and other drugs with the greatest benchmark of successful recovery.  While I have long known that recovery encompasses so much more than merely abstinence, I have also viewed my date of initiating abstinence as the foundation from which everything else was built.  It was the most important thing to me in the world and without it, I would have nothing else.  To that end, for over 11 years, I have proudly clutched the date of July 19, 2005 tightly to my chest, determined to never let it go, to never give it up for anybody or anything.

Today, however, I am letting it go.  Today I am giving that date up.

Before I share with you my reasons for surrendering this beloved date, please hear me out on two important caveats.

First, I am not giving up my “clean/sober” date as result of returning to alcohol or other drug use.  For me, being present in my life and managing my wellness and recovery from a substance use disorder will always include continued abstinence from alcohol and other drugs.  My decision to relinquish the tightened grip around my clean/sober date is with no intent or desire to replace it with alcohol or other drug use.  While there are many varieties of recovery experiences, mine will always include a commitment to abstaining from alcohol and other drugs.

Second, I am also not giving up my “clean/sober” date with the hopes of modeling for others that they ought to do the same.  For me, there were many moments in early recovery during which I was largely motivated to not use alcohol or other drugs simply because I did not want to give up that cherished date.  I think there is a tremendous value in this driving force for many.  I also think that there is much evidence to support the dire importance for many people who have lived with a substance use disorder to accumulate continuous time abstinent from alcohol or other drugs.  I am a strong believer in each individual being empowered and supported to decide what works best for themselves.  In turn, in no way do I aim to sway anybody else from celebrating a date or accomplishment that is important to them.  My decision to no longer focus on my clean/sober date is a personal one.  My decision to share this choice and rationale for it with the world comes from a commitment to being authentic and a burning passion to speak my truth through writing.

Now, on to the two main reasons for why I will no longer be holding onto and focusing on my “clean” or “sober” date.

While I have not used alcohol or other drugs for over 11 years, I have absolutely been consumed by another unhealthy addiction that for all intents and purposes has rendered me just as “active” in addiction as a person using alcohol or other drugs. To celebrate my “clean” or “sober” date while remaining consumed by another addiction has led to great cognitive dissonance and ultimately an in-authenticity with myself and the world. 

For many years prior to my using alcohol and other drugs to escape my physical, mental and emotional experiences, and for the entire duration of my time abstinent from those substances, I have lived with an eating disorder.  Binge eating has remained an ever present active addiction in my life, one that ignites the same exact pathway in my brain that alcohol and other drugs did and one that produces the same desired effects of numbing and escape.  While food is legal and cocaine is not, the purpose and outcome of indulging in both is one and the same for me.  While a McDonalds run for enough food for three won’t land me in jail but smoking enough PCP for three possibly would, in the end both are driven by an obsession and compulsion to indulge despite a nagging desire to not.  Both binge eating and substance use have resulted in unhealthy and unwanted consequences in my life.  To focus so intently on a date that marks the cessation of alcohol and other drug use while the use of food in the same manner has continued on does a disservice to myself and to my recovery journey in its entirety.  Although the date on which I ceased using alcohol and other drugs will always be an important one to me, my recovery journey encompasses so much more than that.  Until I stop using everything that ignites that same pathway in my brain, I am not truly “clean” in my heart, mind and soul.

Celebrating the length of continuous time I have been abstinent as the centerpiece of my recovery story is by default non-inclusive of the millions of people who recover through reduction or moderation of substance use. It also devalues the recovery experience of those who have experienced a lapse in continuous time abstinent but who have been no less engaged and/or successful in their recovery. 

I was trained in using recovery messaging that begins something like this: “Hi, my name is Brooke Feldman, and I am a person in long-term recovery.  What that means for me is that I have not used alcohol or other drugs for over 11 years and, as a result, my life, my family’s life and the people I have come in contact with have been transformed in countless ways…” This message of recovery in many ways is important to give in order to instill hope and provide evidence that long-term recovery is possible.  While there is an enormous value and need for demonstrating that recovery is possible and worth supporting, investing in and aspiring for, we miss the inclusivity mark by focusing on time abstinent.  For more people than not, recovery looks more like reduction or moderation of use.  Countless individuals experience problem alcohol or other drug use at some point in their lives but are able to either naturally or with treatment and recovery support services go on to moderate their use of alcohol or other drugs.  To give the impression that recovery requires abstinence not only prevents large numbers of people from engaging in treatment or recovery support services, it also alienates millions of people from the recovery advocacy movement who have found solutions to problem use without the need for abstinence. Although long-term abstinence is the pathway I have chosen and will continue to choose, I never want to alienate those individuals who choose different pathways to recovery.  By no longer focusing on my time of continuous abstinence as the centerpiece of my recovery story but rather more so a part of it, I hope to be more inclusive of the millions of people who have found wellness and recovery without total abstinence.

Also, while sustained abstinence is possible and a reality for many who choose that pathway, we know that some people experience lapses in abstinence for a variety of reasons.  Those individuals who have experienced a lapse are no less engaged in the recovery process than a person with 20 years of continuous abstinence.  With the right resources and support in place, those individuals who experience a lapse do not automatically lose all they have gained in their recovery journey.  To focus so much on length of time abstinent does a severe disservice to those who experience a lapse.  To cultivate an attitude of “starting over” or loss of recovery status by placing such enormous value on length of continuous time abstinent is far from helpful for individuals, families, communities, organizations and policy makers.  This practice is something I no longer wish to inadvertently contribute to by placing such high focus on my own continuous time abstinent.

While I will always have profound gratitude for July 19th, 2005, I am giving that date up as the centerpiece of my recovery and placing it up on the shelf with other personally significant milestones and accomplishments in my life.  Just like all the rest, sustained abstinence is merely a lived experience and personal progress marker, not a definition of my full recovery or who I really am in all of my humanity.  It is also not an indicator of what recovery can and does look like for millions of other individuals and families.

In closing, I recognize that my personal decision and rationale for no longer holding on so tightly to my “clean” or “sober” date is likely to spark mixed reactions among my peers who identify as being in recovery.  If you are somebody who feels resolute in your attachment to and the value of your own clean/sober date, I support you wholeheartedly and do not seek to change your mind.  I cannot emphasize enough how much worth doing so had in my own life for many years.  My only hope is that if you have gotten this far, you were able to receive my current truth and perhaps even feel moved to explore any bits of it that resonated with you.  Thank you for getting this far.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lessons in Recovery: The Brighter the Light, the Darker the Shadow

Psychologist Carl Jung once said “the further you go into light, the greater your shadow becomes.”  As a person long drawn to Jung’s school of thought, the concept of “the shadow” has always been intriguing to me.  The idea that each of us has a shadow – a part of our psyche kept hidden away from others, a portion of us deemed too unruly for the outside world yet still ever present right there under the surface – is an idea that has reverberated in me as truth since the very first time I heard it.

As a person in long-term recovery from a substance use disorder, I’ve done a lot of personal growth work around actualizing my potential and living my life in accordance of what I believe to be “good” or “right.”  For a long time prior to entering into recovery, my life centered around anything but what would be widely considered good or right.  It is fair to say, in fact, that my very existence was a walking contradiction of good and right.  Lying, stealing, hurting others, total self-centeredness and utter self-destruction were characteristics and ways of being that steered my ship.  Upon entering into recovery, I quickly learned that if I were to stand a chance at wellness and a meaningful and fulfilling life, the cessation of these “bad” behaviors and the transition from doing the wrong thing to doing the “right thing” would be critical.  In turn, I spent much of the past decade in a consistent and wholehearted attempt to be good and do the right thing.  While this way of being has certainly granted me a meaningful and fulfilling life far beyond what I would have dared imagine, there is one pesky matter that has always hung back lurking in the mist and waiting to be acknowledged.  It is the matter of my shadow.

It is important to note that the concept of the shadow and the ideas of “being good” or “doing the right thing” are universal and far from limited to those in recovery from a substance use disorder.  From a very young age, most of us are taught right from wrong, good from bad.  We learn what is socially acceptable, what is socially appropriate and what parts of us are given a warm welcome from the outside world versus which parts of us are shamed, shunned, made wrong and sent away.  We all grow up developing our persona based on these learned experiences and we all have that pesky matter of the shadow to contend with in our adult years.  Some of us skate through life without ever putting much thought or work into it.  Others of us find that we are left with little to no choice but to put the time, effort and energy into addressing the darker part of us as we grow in awareness of it.

For me, I have only recently begun to realize to what extent my repressed shadow self has an impact on my life and those around me.  While I was handed many tools along the way of my personal recovery journey, from strategies developed in professional treatment settings to mutual aid group involvement and 12-step program participation, I was never quite given the tools to address the matter of my shadow.  In many ways, some of the tools at my disposal were actually more useful in heaping additional piles of persona on top of my shadow self rather than truly addressing and integrating the darker side of me.  I have since come to realize that the darker side of me is as much a part of who I am as is the bright, shining light that the world seems so attracted to.

As I find myself embarking on the next stage of my recovery journey – a journey that in many ways is simply just the human journey – I look forward to reconnecting with all parts of me.  There are lots of pretty, shiny and sparkly parts and there are lots of ugly, darker and not so pleasant parts.  The reality of it all is that the bright shiny light people see and love in me would not be so bright were it not for the depths of darkness that exist in the shadow part of me.  The reality is that the same is true for all of us.  For me, the latest iteration of being “good” and “doing the right thing” is as simple as this: it would be no justice to myself and the world around me to only show the bright light without showing the shadow that inevitably accompanies it.  If I am going to share the light, I ought to share the shadow.  I look forward to doing just that.

 

Recovery Outside of Mutual Aid Groups

In the beginning of my addiction recovery journey, I was indoctrinated into the idea that the only way to recover was through lifelong engagement in a 12-step mutual aid group.  I was advised by professionals and recovering people alike that failure to participate in a mutual aid group would lead me to the inevitable ends of “jails, institutions or death.”  With no education provided to me regarding any of the alternative pathways to sustainable recovery coupled by a substantial amount of fear fanned by this message of doom and gloom, I went on to internalize the mindset and spend a good number of years highly engaged in a mutual aid group.  My world was largely encapsulated inside the community of others who were engaged in the same mutual aid group and the idea of stepping outside of it was strongly discouraged.  Although I increasingly grew to crave a full life in the larger community as well as unable to align with many of the ideas and beliefs circulated in the mutual aid group, my fear of the taught consequences of disengagement kept me involved long past the point at which cognitive dissonance began to wear heavily on my soul.

Now, please note that this is in no way an attack on 12-step mutual aid groups.  Many of the tools and strategies I utilize to sustain my recovery were born out of my involvement with the mutual aid group and I have witnessed the extraordinary benefits, both personally and in others, of 12-step mutual aid group participation.  I am a staunch believer in the idea of multiple pathways to recovery and am in no way blind to the value and importance of 12-step mutual aid groups in the lives of many.  I merely believe that there is a place for all pathways at the table of recovery.  I also believe that people in or seeking recovery ought not be limited to just one pathway, and furthermore, people in or seeking recovery ought to be empowered and supported in selecting from the vast variety of pathways available as they see fit for themselves at any given time.  I say “at any given time” because it is natural that growth and evolution may result in a need or desire for different pathways at different times.

For me, I’ve wondered in the glory of 20/20 hindsight vision what my recovery journey would have been like had I been educated earlier on about the many pathways to recovery.  I’ve wondered if I would have succumbed to being driven by fear of the taught consequences if I had known that there was more than just this one way to recover.  I’ve wondered what I may have chosen for myself had I heard people who were not rooted solely in mutual aid group participation share their triumphant stories of recovery.  I’ve also wondered what the world would look like if more people openly shared their experiences of recovery that expand far beyond 12-step mutual aid involvement.  I’ve wondered how many lives would not be lost if there were increased education around and access to alternative pathways more suited for each individual’s needs.

It is important to hear the voice of those who have sustained recovery without utilizing or following disengagement from mutual aid groups.  It is important for the world to know that thriving in recovery is very much possible outside of solely mutual aid group involvement.  While acknowledging that for many, lifelong membership in a mutual aid group is what they find best meets their needs and this ought to be supported, it is important to acknowledge that there are countless others who have rich experiences and plenty of hope to share around recovery taking place outside of lifelong mutual aid involvement.  It is important for each individual to be able to make an informed choice regarding what would work best for them.

For me, my recovery pathway is littered with an array of strategies and tools pulled from a variety of resources.  It has included psychotherapy, mentorship, reading, online support, sponsorship, spirituality, self-help seminars, volunteerism, relationships with other people in recovery, exercise, relationships with people outside of recovery, time spent in nature and past mutual aid involvement.  It is eclectic and ever-evolving, and it has allowed me a life of freedom and without limitations.  My recovery has allowed me to attend weddings, funerals, graduation and birthday parties.  It has allowed me to be a member of the larger community and not live confined to smaller segments of the community.  It has allowed me the ability to decide what is safe and comfortable for myself and to make healthy decisions. It has allowed me to pursue my education, have the job of my dreams and live a life full of meaning and purpose.  My recovery has continued to grow and thrive exponentially despite, and perhaps in some ways even as a result of my own personal mutual aid group disengagement.

We talk a lot about putting a face and voice on recovery.  The beautiful thing is that each face and voice will tell a different tale of what recovery means for them.  And yes, of course for many, mutual aid group involvement is an instrumental part of their sustained recovery journey…but let’s not forget, judge, discount or ignore the significant number of others who have found sustained recovery outside of church basements and walls.  There is much to be learned from this group of people in recovery as well.

This Is It, Every Time.

I take a deep breath, tuck my chin down, open the door and slip quickly inside.

I hope nobody is in there; I hope nobody comes in.  I glance around anxiously.

The anxiety fills my already full insides.  I hate this feeling.

Maybe this was a mistake.  Maybe I should have just waited.

I feel my breathing change as my heart beats faster.

Hurry.  Hurry up.

I duck into the first available stall and quickly close the door behind me.

I hope nobody comes in.

Hurry.

I rush to relieve myself.  To conduct this necessary biological function that ought not be so nerve-wracking and fill me with fear.

I hear the door open.  The sound of shoes walking across the floor.

I hold my breath for a second, as if the very cessation of breathing will disappear this threat.

I haven’t even seen this person but I fear them.  My fear feels almost like an anger that they have entered this space.

What should I do?

I remain in the stall, barely breathing, paralyzed.

Hurry up.  Not me, I’m done.  Hurry up stranger with the blue shoes.

I wait.  I hope nobody else comes in.

The sound of a toilet flushing brings a moment of relief.

Blue shoes who I fear and therefore do not like despite knowing nothing of her beyond her intruding ankles walks past my stall and to the sink.

The sound of water.

A little more relief.

I hope nobody else comes in.  I ready my escape.

The sound of water shutting off.  Paper towels being pulled from the machine.  Shoes across the floor.  Door opening.

This is it, I have to make a run for it now.

This is it, this is what using a public restroom is like for me.

This is it, every time.

I’m Not a Scumbag: Drug Testing for Public Assistance Recipients in PA

The public perception runs rampant that most individuals receiving public assistance are, as one individual who signed an online petition stated, “scumbags sucking off the system.” If this were true, then I would be a scumbag who sucked off the system 11 years ago. When I was a person struggling with a substance use disorder, I utilized public assistance to meet my basic needs and sustain my life long enough to get the help I needed to enter into recovery. Without public assistance, it’s hard to imagine that I would have made it to where I am today. Although I was a person with a substance use disorder receiving public assistance, the people who knew me would most likely not have described me as a “scumbag sucking off the system.” They more likely would have described me as an individual with a lot of potential who needed some help. Thankfully for not only myself but the people around me, I was able to receive that help, and today have close to 11 years of continuous abstinence from alcohol and other drugs. I am an engaged member of my family, an asset to my community, a taxpaying citizen and an example of what the safety net of public assistance is designed to do. It is imperative that other individuals, families and communities get the same opportunity at life that I’ve had.

Currently there is proposed legislation in the Pennsylvania House of Representatives, House Bill 1380, that is threatening to take that opportunity away from our most vulnerable residents. This legislation seeks to address the misinformed public perception that most individuals receiving public assistance are “scumbags sucking off the system” by imposing drug screening, testing and sanctions leading up to termination of benefits for individuals who may be struggling with a substance use disorder. The proposed policy is poorly thought out and does not take into account the nature of the illness it proclaims to be addressing. The policy as proposed also would hit taxpayer pockets hard, with other states having experienced costs of up to $77,000 to “catch” just one illicit substance user and 11 states having attempted and aborted similar policies (Drug Policy Alliance). Even with considering that there is some benefit to screening for substance misuse and facilitating treatment options for those who need it, House Bill 1380 is by no means the smart and sensible way to get at this. If we want a fiscally sound way to assist more Pennsylvanians with having the opportunity at life that I’ve had, we need to tell our Representatives to invite stakeholders and those affected to the table and aim to construct a policy that makes sense. If we want a better Pennsylvania, we need to address this issue with compassion, understanding and science. Those “scumbags sucking off the system” are our family members, our neighbors, our community members and some of our state’s greatest assets. I’m not a scumbag – I’m living proof of the many who have gotten a chance at life.

 

 

The Greenhouse Effect – The Future of Behavioral Health

For a long time, our nation’s behavioral health care systems have been focused on treating people after they become unwell.  It has sort of been like waiting for the leaves to begin falling off of a plant before rushing in to provide any nourishment or care.  This approach has been problematic in many ways, most notably because there has far too often been an extraordinary amount of unnecessary suffering experienced at the individual, family and community levels when a person is not treated until acutely unwell.  We know that the longer an illness progresses, the more difficult it is to treat and the more severe the adverse impact on an individual’s life becomes.  A close second in terms of this approach being problematic is the financial cost – the United States spends more money on healthcare than any other country in the world yet ranks the lowest in terms of positive health outcomes in many categories.  It is clear that the current way of doing behavioral healthcare in our country is not working – so what do we do about it?

If we continue to use the analogy of a sick plant, our current paradigm is situated perfectly to wait for a plant to become unwell, remove that plant from its soil and then place it into an expensive incubating environment for treatment.  Unfortunately, this incubating environment is not designed to treat all of the different kinds of plants that exist in the world and additionally, many plants are unable to gain access to these incubating environments.  For the plants that are privileged enough to gain access to and receive individually relevant treatment in an incubating environment, sometimes there is growth and signs of getting better.  The plants become a little healthier and then are removed from the incubating environment to be placed right back into the soil from which they came.  Also unfortunately however, the very soil from which the plant initially came was never treated – it is still the same soil which failed to nourish and sustain the plant to begin with.  As a result, even those plants that gained access to and experienced improved health from treatment received while incubated will often go on to become unwell again a short time after being placed back into the same untreated soil.  Our current paradigm treats the plant, not the soil.  We must shift to begin to treat the soil at the same time as the unwell plant.

Treating the soil to sustain returning plants that have become unwell is not enough though.  We need to go a step further.  We need to nourish the soil and pump it full of the nutrients needed to prevent plants from becoming unwell to begin with.  In this regard, our current behavioral health systems need to shift to serve as greenhouses of sorts.  With the knowledge that lifestyle and environmental factors are responsible for 70% of good health outcomes, there is no reason why behavioral health systems should not move toward fostering improved access to these positive social determinants of health.   Additionally, with the knowledge that many behavioral health challenges have known risk factors and early warning signs which make prevention and early intervention a very real possibility, there is no reason why behavioral health systems cannot move toward fostering environments equipped to respond early.  If we are truly to see any significant changes in positive behavioral health, our systems need to serve as greenhouses in which good health is promoted and sustained, early warning signs of becoming unwell are detected and addressed, and the environment is made rich with the nutrients of resources and supports needed for all inhabitants to maintain good behavioral health overall.

Inspiration, Humanity and Humility In Recovery

The act of openly sharing one’s recovery status with the world around them allows for some of the most extraordinary of things. When those of us in recovery talk or write about our journey through and past the difficulties associated with mental health and substance use challenges, we are then able to serve as beacons of hope and visible guideposts for others who seek to do the same. It is most certainly one of the highest acts of selfless service; to be willing to disclose that we have experienced illnesses and challenges that are still so highly stigmatized and discriminated against takes courage, guts and a willingness to be vulnerable. In sharing ourselves so candidly, we help to shatter stigma, strip away shame and stomp on the sordid idea that recovery is not possible.

There are many times that I’ve been called an inspiration as a result of my own candor regarding my recovery journey. For me, this is the most humbling of adjectives and one that I have always felt privileged to show up as in the world for others. The idea that some of the most painful experiences of my life are now used to serve as a light for the world is one that brings personal fulfillment and a deep level of gratitude. I am tremendously appreciative of the opportunity to serve as an inspiration, however I also recognize that there are certain responsibilities that come with carrying that adjective. One of the responsibilities, for instance, is to always remember for myself and to inform others of the reality that my recovery is largely as a result of many factors for which I cannot take credit. Some of these factors include access to resources and supports that I had while so many others are literally dying to have. Another responsibility when being called an inspiration is to share the whole story – not just the neatly packaged pretty parts but the entire barrel of all that comes with it. If I tell you that you can accomplish something because I have, but do not tell you all of the obstacles and barriers I have experienced while attempting to accomplish it, am I really doing you a fair service in the end? It is therefore important to authentically share the challenges along with the successes if we truly wish to serve as guideposts for others seeking to do the same.

To that end, it is important to share that recovery is messy, just like being human is messy. With nearly 11 years in sustained recovery, I can tell you that for me, there are still some days when the idea of continuing on in life can be overwhelming and scary. There are still many instances in which I struggle with depression, insecurities, feelings of unworthiness, bad decision making, fear, loneliness and a multitude of other challenges. There have been many times when not using alcohol or other drugs has been replaced by an astoundingly creative wide variety of other self-destructive things. There have been many occasions when a Taco Bell drive-thru served as the cop-man or self-pity surfaced regarding all of the things in this world that I cannot indulge in. For every monumental milestone, awesome achievement and inspirational impression, there are equal amounts of hard work, mistakes, struggle, falling down and getting back up, lessons learned and opportunities for improvement.

The beautiful thing is, recovery still happens. In all of our humanity and with all of our imperfections and flaws, when we share our recovery journeys honestly, openly and transparently with the world around us, we truly do serve as inspirations. Not as pie-in-the-sky, unachievable, perfectly packaged inspirations but as very human, very real examples of recovery being possible from mental health and substance use challenges, and really, for humanity as a whole. At the end of the day, perhaps the greatest act of service when it comes to being an inspiration is in sharing this: I am human, I am flawed and I still recover…so can you.

Beyond Treatment: Let’s Not Forget About The Soil

We know that any gains made in treatment often plummet and fall apart when communities aren’t equipped with the nutrients of resources necessary to serve as fertile soil for continued recovery.

Whenever a public health crisis cascades upon us, it is natural that we grasp at the quick fixes and shiny objects that capture our attention. As history has shown us however, these sort of responses rarely yield long-term success and can instead result in a slew of unanticipated consequences that further compound the concern. With increased attention and a much welcomed sense of urgency emerging when it comes to addressing substance use challenges in this country, it is important that we continue to think globally on the issue and not settle for narrow and insufficient resolutions.

One area in which we can direct our focus is in the public perception that treatment is the be-all and end-all solution to addressing substance use challenges. While access to evidence-based, clinically sound, culturally appropriate and readily available mental health and substance use treatment is of extraordinary importance, access to initiating and sustaining recovery is something that extends far beyond merely access to treatment. We must take care to remember, as well as to educate others, that increasing access to treatment in and of itself is far from a comprehensive response to facing addiction and facilitating recovery.

Treatment is but one pane on the larger recovery umbrella that encompasses all of the resources and supports an individual and their family may need to initiate and sustain recovery.

Although it is true that for many folks, having immediate access to quality treatment is an instrumental ingredient in their wellness and recovery journeys, we must not forget that long-term community-based recovery support services are just as influential and necessary when it comes to sufficiently addressing substance use challenges in this country. As a matter of fact, long-term community-based recovery support services that offer peer support in the areas of employment, education, housing, life skills and more are a vital and critical resource if we are ever to see true, lasting opportunities for individual, family and community recovery.

As we continue to advocate for a large-scale response to our country’s large-scale substance misuse and associated costs problem, it is imperative that we do not settle for anything less than what is truly necessary for individual, family and community recovery. While we certainly ought to continue assertively advocating for much needed improved access to quality treatment, we must also speak just as loudly to the need for increased and improved community-based recovery support services.  We must not settle for narrow and insufficient resolutions.  We must not forget about the soil.